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Sunday, 03 August 2008

i'm still alive don't worry.
many thanks to s31 babes who msged me. thanks yo. don't have the habit of replying to messages more than half the time=P

mrs toh was telling me how she's worried for the class, who's alr bottom few in the cohort. and she says if we continue like that, we'll end up in at the bottom of the cohort. deep inside me, I just know we were so far from fulfilling our potential because the smartest ones chose to slack their asses off and end up at the bottom of the class. the usual pple were living up to their reputation of being a hard-core mugger, and despite 6months of intensive mugging 24/7 with min. involvement in their CCA, they failed to produce results too. no please don't emulate this way of mugging. the only thing I guess is consoling at the moment, is that the slack ones are working their asses off too and I have a lot of faith in these pple to surpass the hard-core muggers of the class=P not trying to put anyone down but it's an undeniable fact that when the brainy ones work hard, they get even more brainy=D

as for me, i'm desperate to acknowledge my potential too. I getting convinced that the As is prolly one of the toughest exam you will ever take in your lifetime.

anyway, I missed Mr Pain-in-the-ass GP lesson yesterday. i missed it on tue too cos of CT duty(YEA MANZ!) and the previous fri cos of half day. Well seriously, no offence he's just a stupid bitch who's trying to talk no sense in his really simplistic english which is comparable to that of a pri sch kid. sorry for sounding so mean, I was the only person in the class at first who felt that he was not bad, but as time passed, he seriously proved me wrong with his disinterest in carrying out levery esson. He's such a jerk that I feel like punching him in his face everytime I see him I swear. =D
I seriously thought I deserved to fail my essay, but it doesn't help if you pass me and provide me with far from constructive comments.

anyway, I will go back to school tmr. I'm not feeling too good though. I seldom fall seriously sick like that, and when I do, I take hell damn long to recover. last time this happened was during EOYs, my body just totally died on me. alotta pple just told me I'm too tired and I should seriously just rest, myum keeps forcing me to sleep until I'm having nightmares alr. I just keep on fantasising how life would simply rock aft the As, not having to worry abt anything anymore. I guess no one will unds how it gets really tiring to sustain life at this pace for four years. It prolly just shorten your life by another four years too.
well I dreamt that SA asked for a friendly against us and coach obliged. And I actly saw all the year ones playing against SA and saw that red boot girl, damn funnaye come to think of it. but when I woke up I couldn't recall if we won or lost the match=P

just received the new ikea magazine. I'm like so tempted to give my room a new facelift. My room badly needs a revamp cos the furniture is so outdated alr. Don't have the luxury of time though, I promise to do that aft the As, which will be one a half years later.

I think I should continue fantasising, at least it gives me the motivation to go on.
lastly, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE GO WATCH DARK KNIGHT IF YOU HAVEN'T. YOU WILL REGRET IF YOU DON'T CATCH IT! I'm just really impressed by the plot and the projection of the script in such a thrilling manner that caters to the need of the lowest common denominator without compromising on the overall feel of the movie. It's the first ever movie to break the records set by Titanic and it's alr first in Singapore Box office for two weeks consecutively alr. so yeah, you know what to do, it's gna be so worth your money and time yeah?

(:

Friday, 01 August 2008

wenta catch dark knights last night! ticket sponsored by somebody + free chauffeur=P fantastic movie that's definitely not for the faint-hearted. I was really impressed by the plot and the intense acting skills of the joker. Impressive movie seriously and if you haven't caught it, I would seriously recommend you to catch it. actly wasn't feeling too well, chest got really painful at night, and couldn't breathe. So when the movie ended at 11plus, by the time I reached home, I was shivering like crazy and I thought I was gng to die from a blocked artery I swear. Never felt such a sharp pain so I plonked myself to bed and wrapped myself in blanket and clothes and decided that I was not going to go to school tmr.
alas, when my mum woke up me up, I recalled I had to account for smth today. So out of responsibility, I decided to go to school and actly I felt much better alr. but the pain in the chest was still there and greenish phleghm was coming out from my nose. Starting to feel a little uneasy, I decided to go home. BUT, i realised the security guard wouldn't allow me to leave school before 1245, so I decided to wait until the time was up, to spare myself of the trouble of seeing VP.
when I went home, I was seriously suay to the max. I slept, for a while, and was extremely disturbed by the incessant coughing which kinda disrupted my sleep. So in my delirious state, I decided to wake up and get warm water.
This was when I started feeling really suay. Well cos I was feeling really dizzy, I din see a cloth in front of me, and I stepped on it, slipped and fell really hard on my hipbone and my arm. And I seriously felt like I was gng to cry alr. Aft getting water I walked out of the kitchen, my feet slammed against the door, and my little toe got even more swollen=( double suayness.

okay sorry for being such a whine. I barely strung a complete sentence of words in school today and mrs toh thought I din come to school cos I was so quiet during tutorial. Losing my voice made me realise how noisy I am normally.

school's been seriously busy. I guess everyone's feeling this way and it makes me wonder when can we really sit down with nothing weighing on our minds. I think life aft the As would simply rock for we girls cos we getta slack like nobody's business(unlike the poor boys who keeps whining how NS suck)=P For now, I just gotta unds I've only 24 hours in a day, and I can't please the whole world. I sometimes look back and wonder if it's a mistake joining CTC, maybe I shouldn't but I guess it does give me a greater sense of ownership and belonging to the class or I guess I would be even more detached from the girls and not even attempting to click with them. Trying hard is one thing I feel, but whether you can is an entirely different thing manz!
okay I gotta rest! I still wna run tmr and do gk trng. actly wed and sat are my favourite days. smth to look forward to I guess.

Monday, 28 July 2008

since when did she consciously have to remember to breathe

p.s. #1 I'm not a desperate workaholic, so stop piling me with all the work! !#$%^
p.s. #2 well you don't know how glad I am to be able to survive every passing day since the start of school term
p.s. #3 time check, I've been living the life of a hermit for 3 weeks 6 days 0 hours and 8 mins. I've totally broken all previous records and I'm seriously starting to feel a little deprived and finally unds the meaning of having "no life"
p.s. #4 I got this feeling telling me if I contd like that, I might end up failing my promos and getting retained. well if you don't believe me we shall wait and see.
p.s.#5 my handphone is spoilt. I have a reason to ignore all your smses and calls. sorry, but I so hate checking my phone nowadays.
miss the friends and talking to them. can't remember the last time I smiled from the bottom of my heart.

Saturday, 26 July 2008

sorry abit pissed now cos i typed a few para and the whole thing poof cos I clicked the wrong button.
anyway today din start off well cos I was experiencing immense pain that I had difficulty walking. Later I eventually managed to run the pain off, much to my delight. Found back my rhythm of running YO! until I stupidly tried to keep with this caucausian guy who kept on accelerating after hearing my footsteps behind him until I gave up and let him go.
rushed here and there, worried mum cos she said I looked drained. But o wells, I wasn't feeling really tired. Rushed for college day duty. jumped on the opportunity to socialise. I have totally cut out all socialising activities seriously. caught up with friends, and later aft college day my vsparks mates=D love them to the corest core and din realise how much I missed them! me and jing so much wanted to talk until late at night, but she had to go for eason chan's concert=_= zz okay at least she accompanied me until 730 when the concert starts at 8pm@_@
abit upset during college day cos I found out some undercurrents about my adhoc, which I wished I din know. but bf thinks I shouldn care since it doesn't concern me. later got him abit pissed over smth I did wrong=_=
saw familiar faces, talked to them when they talked to me. george was uber suave but din have time to talk much to him. enjoyed marc's highly inspiring speech about the "wake-up call".
special significance? yeah definitely to your question.

glad I survived today heh! my eyes are tired, ta!